why can't I put it down?

         From last year to now, it was to happen too much misfortune around me, there are a lot of frustration too, Am I married to a bad wife or? In fact, I am very clearly, so many years only one person…Why do I always let her down? I have asked myself, Is it the moment wrong she had…why I can not put it down up to now, sometimes the heart can not bear, I know this life is not to break from us, I also know she is so kindly to me it is any girl can’t do around me, I do not know why? Is it just one reason I am not willing to? I can not find the answer…Perhaps someone else said it is right sometimes happiness was in front of you but you did not grasp or did not envisage it…Why every time when I had something chagrin I always think it will be nice if she can stay with me, would have thought she had all before, thought that it’s just her who can listened to me quietly at the end of telephone when I headily or no disrespect said …