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Taiwan
March 12, 2009
after TIME.
Is it bad being a loner? A nerd?
Sometimes I wish that I don't know anybody
so I can be so myself not affected by others.
I don't have to think of any ways proper trea-
ting other people and receive their anything.
For me, it can't be more wonderful just caring
about myself. But you may say a boo to that.
Just, it's a different matter, you understand me?
While what I said always was translated to totally
different things, I wish I don't need to speak
anything.
Please stop assuming what I'd react. I wouldn't ask
for an apology after the vehement discussion. And I
wouldn't feel nothing when you said 白目 to me in
front of everybody. I feel that I'm not the one
you can treat just like that! And I hate waiting
when I know you are postponing for nothing important.
Why am I so different from you guys? And I just feel
that I can't change myself to fit in. I tried hard I
swear!
I hope I see nobody, I hear nobody.
I just want what I want... I don't wanna acting
stupid and being held back by my bad habits.
And I don't want to struggle with
the bad things coming out from my mouth
when I know I would eventually be defeated.
But I can't be so!
I see everybody, I hear everybody. I lose what I
want... I'm acting stupid and held back by my bad
habits. And those words stumbled out of my mouth.
Not too many days left, can I be so egoistic?
Can I not give a damn to others? You don't
come and influence my anymore!!!!!!
When can I be like the one that I really wanna be?
The one that everyone wants to be?
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