lively breath

when i woke up this morning, i smiled widely and inhaled a real deep breath, imagining a new life was coming, but not, i was still in my place, i went nowhere, still, in my place. then i stepped down stair, looked to my family, mother, father, sisters and brothers, they were still there, waiting for me, to breakfast, i greeted them, kissing every cheek, and whispering morning, and i love you,,,i finished my plate, and washed the dishes, the water was cold, i was freezing. when came bacl to the dining room, mother, father, sisters, nor brothers were there. nobody was home, they were all going out, for business, and leaving me alone, in my world... smiling, i went up stair, watched my watch, and lay down, i closed my eyes and questioned myself" will i give a similar life to my daughters or sons one day" i opened my eyes, i wiped my tears, and answered" NO! it's enough! no body of my family will feel what i m now feeling...so lonely..." i was thinking, for whom they were doing all those things? because they felt no love each other, they were lack of time for even themselves,,,no! my daughters will never know what lonely means! I will not allow them to know what it means, they will only know love, and togetherness. i felt a warm and a lively breath in my lung, i fell asleep...

March 30, 2008

elspet