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May 7, 2008

recently i feel very very tired, so weary that really want to become a lazy cat, sleeping in the sunshine all day long...
then what kinds of things am i busy with? it is hard to describe, to detail, just lots of things to be done, one by one...
it is possible that i become crazy for playing, go shopping and so on...there are lots of things i want to do, i want to learn, i want to do better and better. however , i am still a student,and my major is not so simple that i should pay more attention to it for a better job in the future. it is sad that time is limited, just 24hours a day, just 7 days a week, time flies so fast that i can not stop to look sth more carefully, to feel sth more deeply, to think about sth saner...sometimes like a runner in the course, try all best to go after sth, to seek sth, most time we do not know what the "sth" is, just running and running, what is the terminus? who knows? i do not know.
learn some new slangs from EnglishBaby, like "live up to ", "put you in your place"and so on. Madonna lives up to her name "Madonna" right? i live up to the hopes of my parents, the wishes of myself. though sometime it is hard to live up to those, it gets comfusing ,it makes me mad, i still have to live up to those, it is really tough, really very very tired...maybe "put me in my place " will be a way to get out of those messes. hope so, i just want to have a transparent life, to have a free breath, to do sth i like...
i think i will, i believe i will, i try my best to be a person i want to be...

PS: last Design Pattern class, i talked with our teacher face to face, what a exciting thing! just for me i mean. he is so lovely, cute, and really like him very much. it is glad to have a talk with him...

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April 8, 2008

Maybe i will make many mistakes,but if i do not try, i will never know what kind of mistakes i will make, then how can i make progress? so , i have to affront!
i will be very glad if someone who is reading this finds some mistakes and tells me.
one only has two eyes, usually judges someone other or something happend just from his or her own eyes. there must be lots of things that are not seen and heard of, so anyone needs the information, the views, the judgements, the feelings and so on come from other people. that is the point! i really need your information, your views and your judgements.....
maybe i will feel embarrassed when i see or hear some words, but it is just for that moment, it is temporary, i am sure of that. more times i affront it, i deal with it, clamer i will become, right? i think i do not have enough experiences to face the criticism. for when i heard or feel that i do not face it soon, i could not clam down as soon as i thought i should be. it is not the mature mentality of adult, in my mind. some days before, i was taught a lesson, i feel very unconformtable and told some friends about that. one of my best friends said that was because i was usually judged a good student to the teacher, a docile child to the parenets, and then i judged myself a person who should not make any mistake, but it is impossible for avoiding any mistakes in our daily life, the mistakes are the necessary conditions to get ahead. nobody was born of genius, then if we are not the nature genius, we must try our best to listen more, to learn more, and then we have enough capablity to improve more.