my thoughts exactly

So no one told you life is gonna be this way...

A line from the song...I'll be there for you( soundtrack of FRIENDS - the show I really like)

When we're young, we're so eager to grow up and do things on our own. We want to make our own decisions and we believe that we know everything. At times, we're fed up listening to our parents sermons- telling us how to behave and all that.

Now, that we were thrown out of the ocean- we realized how big the world is! Now, we have to make our decisions - some big, some small, some will turn our life around. We learned that life is full of choices.  We realized how bad and how good people can be. We realized how difficult it is to keep a relationship going. We realized the importance of commitment.  We realized how hard it is to work and earn money, to budget and make both ends meet. Yes, our parents may have taught us these things but its not the same when we actually experience it.

We continuously learn new things as we get older ( so the more you know, the older you are, just kidding!).

Well, life maybe a bit complicated but I think its part of the challenge. Difficulties makes us a stronger person and it builds our character. Our parents and friends are there to help us along the way and get through the tough times.  They we'll be there for us, when the rain starts to pour! And we will be there for them too. Now.. that's life- being there for each other!

Anyway, here's the rest of the song....

I'll be there for you

So no one told you life was gonna be this way 

Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.  

It's like you're always stuck in second gear 

And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, 

or even your year but.. 

 I'll be there for you 

When the rain starts to pour 

I'll be there for you 

Like I've been there before 

I'll be there for you 

'Cuz you're there for me too...  

You're still in bed at ten 

And work began at eight 

You've burned your breakfast So far...

 things are goin' great  

Your mother warned you 

there'd be days like these 

Oh but she didn't tell you 

when the world has brought 

You down to your knees that...  

I'll be there for you 

When the rain starts to pour

 I'll be there for you 

Like I've been there before 

I'll be there for you 

'Cuz you're there for me too... 

 No one could ever know me

 No one could ever see me 

Seems you're the only one who knows 

What it's like to be me

 Someone to face the day with 

Make it through all the rest with 

Someone I'll always laugh with 

Even at my worst 

I'm best with you, yeah  

It's like you're always stuck in second gear 

And it hasn't been your day, your week, 

your month, or even your year...  

I'll be there for you 

When the rain starts to pour 

I'll be there for you 

Like I've been there before 

I'll be there for you '

Cuz you're there for me too...  

I'll be there for you 

I'll be there for you 

I'll be there for you 

'Cuz you're there for me too...

How time flies!

In less than 2 weeks we'll be saying goodbye to 2007...

Looking back, I can say that this year has been good to me. Although, yes, I still have a lot of plans that fell through. I can still say that it was a pretty good year. I love what I do now, I like my job! ( I'm a teacher, anyway). Well, it has its share of difficulties, but, for me its a very rewarding career. That's why it like it so much. When I started my teaching career this year, I told myself that I will do my very best.

I also faced a lot of trials this year, but, I was able to surpass that too, ( I'm really glad!) We'll maybe not all but, I can say that I survived-. And maybe its not over yet but I guess I'm doing just fine, I'm on the right track.

Thank God, for without His guidance, I would never have made it. I know that I can do all things through him who strengthen me. ( although, at times, I know  I kinda dissapoint Him).

Hopefully, next year, I'll be able to pursue my plans, as well.  And yours, too.

I wish you all good luck and HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

How can someone you love so much make you mad?

I was really angry last night. I lost my temper - I didn;t want it to happen- I said bad things again, I felt so sorry that it has to be that way.

Did I overreact? Perhaps...

But this is not the first time. If only he had listen to me before... I mean really listen to every word I said. It would never have happened. But, yes, indeed, it happened. And again, I was the one who felt so bad.

Is  it my fault? maybe..

Am I too hard? maybe..

A professor once told me that I am.... but I am just being consistent to what I believe is right. I know when to give in and just let it go.. and I know when I have to really say something.

I just couldn't let it pass... I just can't close my eyes and cover my ears  and pretend that its not happening.. that I should just let it go..

But in the end, I felt that it was all my fault,,, so confused and often ask myself where did I go wrong,,,,