Beyond my heart

Most of us, borned in 1980s in China, have witnessed a lot changes of China. Most changes were or are positive, but changes of higher education, it is so bad. I have been in home for more than 4 monthes, loneness and insomnia are my best friend. They always accompany me. Why? What I have learned were too academic, on other words, it was useless in companies because no companies want to employ me to publish papers for them. So, I had nothing to do intead of staying home.

Why this essay's title is "Most of us"? Because most of us borned in 1980s have so many same worries and stories. We had experienced the rigescent primary education in elementary school. Teachers did not teach how to learn but ordered us to learn. Boring! Writing the same things more than 10 times, read an article 5 times and working out one questions 10 times. No creation! Just repeated the same things. That was the order, we must obeyed without questions. Most of us had a sweety dream which was going to the university during childhood. In the university which was heaven in our dream meaned no worries and free all day. But when we grew up and went to the university, disappointment appeared in our hearts. Chinese universities are so bad, many students couldn't learn anything useful. Most of the couses are out of date and most teachers don't know how to teach. They only know how to read, reading the teaching materials in the classes. Postgraduates are become the slaves of their supervisors or porisoners in the universities. Most of the papers plagiarized from others'. No hope, no future! I don't know which bitch enacted "Expanding Admission Scale of Institutions". This policy brought no good but harm to Chinese higher education.

I just completed my IELTS test. I do not know whether the result is good or not. Maybe the band score will not be acceptable, whatever! Why did I spend 1450 RMB on it? The only reason is that I want to go aboard to accept good higher education. I want to pursue PhD in UK or other developed countries. That is my dream which has embedded deeply into my heart. Why don't I have PhD in China? The reason is that Chinese higher education is not good after "Expanding Admission Scale of Institutions". It can not provide students useful knowledge. In other words, what the students have learned during 4 years undergraduate, evin 2.5 or 2 years postgraduate is not helpful for them to hunt for a job or their academic careers. Recent years, more and more HRs of different companies in China complian that it is hard for them to employ good people because most undergraduates can do nothing. They do not know the latest technologies. On the contrary, they only know a few theories in books which are proposed over 30 years. For professors in the universities, I do not know I should call them academicians because they have nothing to do for the academic and all they concern is how to make money and how to get power. Most supervisors can not serve projects to their postgraduates and doctors.

Therefore, I want to escape from the desert of education and I eager to find a field of academic.