New year,new begginning

          With the new years coming again,I feel everthing around me to have not been changed .In traditional condistionos,people always can condider the future can bring some new sense of life.Does it meaningful to me,I can't help thinking it over again and agian.

          Maybe there have some blue emotion air in my essay.Maybe it can make somebody a little uncomfortalbe,but actually my feeling about it is real.These sense is such a real emotioon deep in my heart which can not even be displayed in public. 

          I come to learn about my real own life is very difficult to me sometimes.I couldn't understand it well when I have a busy time in working state.But now I have sufficent time to consider, to be into the calm state ,nobody interupt.Evething is not to be happened as you expected.You will have no clear idea about youself when you hava a quiet environment.

        For a long term of selfawareness for two days,I have not any final results about it.It is always like that .But I don't want to blame myself because I know more about myself  and life than befroe .I know life has their own ways going on.I must to learn how to live a good life by holding the real value in it.

        In past year I took good care fo my life .I knew a lot of good people who came to be my good friends later, I have a several long trip for intereting distance and made my personal life so different that I can get more happy feeling from any playce I want to .But to be honest,I can call it instant happyness or personal happieness.It is not great and permanent. After a short exiting time ,I feel lonely.

        It is said that loneness can make ones have a intergrete personality.But it can make ones to be a dissocial man accordingly.I am afraid to be back ones.So I try my best to join the party I knew in my company.From this action I happen to know that happy feeling can spread among peoples in this ways.It is one of good things I got in past years.  And others is sports which can release yourself from your work ,Single-minded conversation with you lovely friends althought they can'tn well know all your ideas .All those way my life go on in are the importance parts made of my past years life.They give me a surprise and fufill my before last years prediction to my life.

       Perhaps I will take my time and life to be continuing to persue my life real values.  It is not only including the happyness feeling but also the sorrow feeling or others feeling.Because this is real life.Pains can make ourselves  to feel alive in the real world. 

      New years is just coming,new begging is waiting for my new choosing after I must abandon some important things.I think It is the time if I want to keep on going ahead. Whatever the situation I will be faced with.I will take heart of grace to fight with it.God bless me,have a good new year to everydody!