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today u wrote a poem for me

vivie203 — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 20:09:14 GMT

today u wrote a poem for me

today, my first boyfriend, my unique boyfriend in my life wrote a poem for me. it's so unbelievable bcs he was afraid to write compositions.

人生就是这样

美丽的是碧海蓝天
阵阵的清风从海上来
你的短发随风浮起
宁静的是你的脸颊
慈爱的是你的目光
白白的是石块上的盐粒
憨憨的是岩沟里的小蟹
天空飘来朵朵白云
阴影掠过海面，带来阴凉
海鸥，浪涛，松林，是外婆家的声音
永恒的是生活的无常
我常说人生就是这样

tears in eyes, sorrowness in heart

vivie203 — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 18:57:58 GMT

tears in eyes, sorrowness in heart

these days, my eyes are always full of tears while i slept on my bed. i feel deep sorrow.

last night because i could not fall asleep so i watched a movie,named 'Gia', acted by Angelina Jolie. it's a real story about a famous model named Gia. angel face, demoniac body, she got famous quickly, then too young to avoid entice, drug and death came subsquently. death always breaths on your back when you get top too fast. tears in my eyes.

after i watched the movie, i felt deep sad to Gia and her short life. sleeping on my bed, not only tears in my eyes but also sorrowness in my heart. there is strong resonance between the movie and my inner world. confused, sad...then death... life is a really difficult thing, said by Gia's Mom in the movie.

A visit to Baiyun mountain

vivie203 — Sun, 18 May 2008 23:37:23 GMT

A visit to Baiyun mountain

i will translate this article as soon as possible at my convenience.

今天早上和菜头辛辛苦苦地爬起床，整顿装备，借来相机，然后就出发到白云山去了。我们俩都不认识路，懵懵懂懂地就跳上了46路公车，我在车上浑浑噩噩地补眠，大约过了半个小时，菜头大吼一声“下车”，我急急忙忙就跟在她屁股后面下车了。下了车才发现，我以后真的不要再相信近视的她了，竟然提早了两个站下车，又是这种结果，无语。还好，我问了路人甲，她说前面就是白云山了，倒！歪打正着了这次，竟然撞到公园小门来了。于是乎，我们俩踩着快乐的步伐像传说中的白云山走去（之前菜头朋友强烈推荐）。买了票凭直觉我们俩就爬上山了，边爬边拍照，呵呵，我每次拍照菜头都说我太严肃了，可我实在是不懂摆POSE，所以一直都是站得直直的。

山爬到一半时，就听见很多欢呼声还有喇叭里传来的女高音，于是我们也像声音来源方向瞻望，原来是有人在蹦极，没有见过，很好奇，就站定定地看。还真是好玩又惊险。我只有看的份，没那个胆玩，还想多活几年。爬呀爬，我们俩终于到了蹦极所在处，我们俩欢呼，终于到山顶了，好像也不费劲。那里有很多娱乐项目，还有很多人在踢毽子，他们简直就是太厉害了，我也很想踢，一直很想加入，菜头一直在阻止我加入，当然是用语言阻止，说我太菜了，其实也没有了，我一次可以踢6下呢，呵呵。旁边放着音乐，坐在栏杆上我深呼吸了一下，感觉自己又是这个世界又是他们中的一员了，很久没有这种感觉了，来广州后心情第一次这么轻松，第一次这么觉得自己是活着的，第一次觉得活着真好。我笑着乐着，自娱自乐。嗯~~~真好。

后来将近三点钟的时候，邹同学终于费尽千辛万苦来到了我们身边，要知道她12点就说来了，天啊，也太久了，久到我终于发现我们所在的地方并不是山顶而只是山腰。原来我们搞错了。肚子好饿，东西好贵，终于明白入口处所见的那些阿姨大伯什么的都人手一袋馒头或面包了，原来是我们没有战斗经验。失败。还好，我们三一路说说笑笑，拍拍照什么的，时间倒也过得快过得快活。

在等待邹同学的那漫长的两个小时里，我和菜头把山腰逛了个便，发现了一座古寺，竟然要收5块钱才能进，卑鄙，菜头说不进了，我说好！在门口那我发现了柱子上有很奇特的图案，大家都没有注意到，但我觉得它们很特别忍不住就摸了上去。“轮回”这是看到那些图案后第一个钻进我脑海的词。我马上拿起相机把手轻轻放在上面拍了张图片，菜头看我拍出来觉得很不错也来了兴致也要拍，我们两就在那拍了几张手的特写。旁边走来一些人，有情侣什么的，很好奇不知道我们在干什么，觉得这有什么好拍的，可是又很好奇，于是就问我们。呵呵，我说“也没有什么，只是我很喜欢这个图案，觉得像轮回。我把手放上面许个关于爱情的愿望，觉得会实现。”他们笑笑就走开了，说不定我又给这个古寺增加了一段传奇吸引人的东西。呵呵。

下山的时候下雨了，我们三坐了缆车下山了，花了15块钱，比预想中的便宜多了，人生第一次坐缆车，呵呵，只是并不是和我最想的人，有点可惜。但不管怎样，今天真的很开心。

I am eager to visit Italy and the beautiful Sicily

vivie203 — Sun, 27 Apr 2008 18:54:35 GMT

I am eager to visit Italy and the beautiful Sicily

when i was very young i knew there was a beautiful small island named Sicily located in Italy. i really hope one day i can visit this island and maybe settle down. i don't want to live in abroad before but Italy is an exception. there are many beautiful legends about Sicily and Italy. Mafia is of course a big legend of Sicily even of the world. i know a little about it but since it often occurs on screen so i know there is such an organization. some body treat it as poison whereas some others admire it and even imitate it. i don't know what's your impression on it, but to me is just a shining spot of Sicily, Italy. Italy is a city suitable for falling in love. it's full of history, romance and love stories.

信仰

vivie203 — Sun, 20 Apr 2008 19:48:29 GMT

信仰

每当我听见忧郁的乐章
勾起回忆的伤
每当我看见白色的月光
想起你的脸庞
明知不该去想不能去想
偏又想到迷惘
是谁让我心酸谁让我牵挂
是你啊
我知道那些不该说的话
让你负气流浪
想知道多年漂浮的时光
是否你也想家
如果当时吻你当时抱你
也许结局难讲
我那么多遗憾那么多期盼
你知道吗
我爱你是多么清楚多么坚固的信仰
我爱你是多么温暖多么勇敢的力量
我不管心多伤不管爱多慌不管别人怎么想
爱是一种信仰
把我带到你的身旁

喔哦....
我爱你是忠于自己忠于爱情的信仰
我爱你是来自灵魂来自生命的力量
在遥远的地方
你是否一样听见我的呼喊
爱是一种信仰
把你带回我的身旁

过火张信哲

vivie203 — Sun, 20 Apr 2008 19:46:22 GMT

过火张信哲

是否对你承诺了太多
还是我原本给的就不够
你始终有千万种理由
我一直都跟随你的感受
让你疯让你去放纵
以为你有天会感动
关於流言我装作无动於衷
直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁
既然爱难分是非
就别逃避勇敢面对
给了他的心
你是否能够要得回
怎麽忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞
才会陷入感情漩涡
怎麽忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞
伤痛我背

happiness with pain

vivie203 — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 20:30:51 GMT

happiness with pain

no matter what you say i won't give up. no matter how acerb words said from your mouth, i won't care. i will feel hurt by your words but it doesn't matter at least i can feel pain which proves i am still alive. you never know how important you are to me. i got your cellphone number from our friend. i think if you really don't want to be found by me you won't give your new phone number to the friends of us. so i guess you do not really want to eliminate me from your life because if really do not want to see someone i will cut off all contact ways from outside and go to a place never found by you. that's me. that's my style. i won't give up unless i am dead.

Midsummer Night's Dream

vivie203 — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 00:11:24 GMT

Midsummer Night's Dream

Woman!

The magnificent gold drills,

The pearly luster which sparkles,

Has won the empress fabricated imagination for you,

Who would have thought your week suffers,

Is only left over the influence poison,

The arrogant fragrance,

Arouses also kills people fragrantly.

Woman!

When you salute once again like the wealth,

Cheers like the fame and fortune,

Lifts up high the arm like the right,

Please do not need to inquire that once sing the thrush,

It had not only known where flies to,

In order to be real, the vanity and pure soul demise.

希腊，曾有位哲人这样说过：

女人啊，华丽的金钻，闪耀的珠光为你赢得了女皇般虚妄的想像，岂知你的周围只剩下势力的毒,傲慢的香，撩人也杀人的芬芳。

女人啊，当你再度向财富致敬，向名利欢呼，像权利高举臂膀,请不要询问那只曾经歌咏的画眉,它已不知飞向何方，它的嗓音早已干枯暗哑，为了真实，尊荣和洁净灵魂的灭亡

decision

vivie203 — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 00:00:31 GMT

decision

i decided to go back to Nanning and then go to Qinzhou to woo him, my tall guy. i don't want to leave any regret. my friends told me he was very different in mental. he refuses to talk on me. if some one mentions me he will get quick anger then leave. he change his mobil number. it seems that he wants to eliminate me from his life. i decided to give up everything. it's only him who i really want to cherish and love forever. last night i dreamt him and his leaving. i waked up suddenly in the late night. i was too afraid to think. blank, blank, blank... i decided to go back to woo him just like he wooed my love in the past. i will show he how i care about him. make him happy.

a story stolen from a new friend

vivie203 — Tue, 15 Apr 2008 01:30:43 GMT

a story stolen from a new friend

Dear freinds,

I have a nice story to tell you , I hope you enjoy ..

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,

"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river."

The little girl said, "No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl.

"If I hold your hand and something happens to me,

chances are that I may let your hand go.

But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens,

you will never let my hand go."

In any relationship,

the essence of trust is not in its bind,

but in its bond.

So hold the hand of the person who s you rather than expecting them to hold yours...

This message is too short......but carries a lot of Feelings

too sad to think

vivie203 — Tue, 15 Apr 2008 01:15:50 GMT

too sad to think

seasons in the sun. i hope so...

the tall guy, do u know i am hard hurt by you and your words. i once dreamed we were prince and princess. i even guessed we must knew each other in our last lives. but now we finally broke up. you said i did not love you and you could not feel it. i don't know. these days my head turns to blank. i just let myself busy and busy even having little sleep. i don't know how deep i love you i just know i won't forget you forever. maybe i will lose a heart to love, maybe just forget to love. i leave it alone in the deepest of my heart. maybe i forget the way to love.

maybe i am not suitable for love. ok. i will try to live in a completely different way. i told you i hate you and won't forgive you in this life and my next life, i know i have forgiven you i cannot let myself hate you, maybe forever.... who knows. time can change everything maybe, and now i hope so. god blesses you.

those were the days

vivie203 — Sun, 13 Apr 2008 20:26:26 GMT

those were the days

Once upon a time there was a tavern
Where we used to raise a glass or two
Remember how we laughed away the hours
And dreamed of all the great things we would do

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Then the busy years went rushing by us
We lost our starry notions on the way
If by chance I'd see you in the tavern
We'd smile at one another and we'd say

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Just tonight I stood before the tavern
Nothing seemed the way it used to be
In the glass I saw a strange reflection
Was that lonely woman really me

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Through the door there came familiar laughter
I saw your face and heard you call my name
Oh my friend we're older but no wiser
For in our hearts the dreams are still the same

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

pls don't give up

vivie203 — Tue, 08 Apr 2008 19:03:17 GMT

pls don't give up

i met a guy who just broke up with his girlfriend... he said he hated the world because his girlfriend betrayed him. he was good-looking throught the webcam. we just talked without a topic then he asked me to stare on the screen so i fellow his instruction. after a while, my god! suddenly he showed me his naked body through the webcam. oh, mumi. what can i do? to be hurry, i shut down the video frequency window quickly. but, unfortunately i saw him and his naked body, they branded in my head. shake head and shake head, but i cannot forget it.

i told him it's not worthy to give up himself for such a girl. then we talked a lot. he just looked like a little boy. he apologized for what he just did. and thank for my tolerance and direction. he said nobody told him this. now he felt bright and then i asked him to go to bed. he went to bed then.

four-leaf clover

vivie203 — Mon, 07 Apr 2008 19:26:35 GMT

four-leaf clover

yesterday, i bought some seeds of four-leaf clover and grew them in a small flowerpot. today when i came to office i surprisedly found two seeds has pullulated. too quick to imagine, out of expectation.

seeing this i felt very happy because it's said that four-leaf clover could bring good luck.

about holiday

vivie203 — Sun, 06 Apr 2008 19:28:39 GMT

about holiday

3-day holiday has gone. i looked back and surprisedly found during the holiday i just stayed at home alone. unbelievable! before the holiday i have carefully planned to visit this city and some old friends but finally i didn't go out my house except having meals. why can i stay alone at home for three days? i wonder. i stayed a day and a day before my computer. what did i do? what was so attractive? i wonder. hahaha...... that's the novels, beautiful and romantic novels. "Pulan Vow" in chinese "普兰誓言", is an affecting loving story a occured at Tibet, a sacred place. i spent a half a day to read it. after reading i become more intent to visit Tibet. really eager to step on the land of Tibet and breath the air of the sacred place.

rainning day, warm heart

vivie203 — Wed, 02 Apr 2008 20:34:33 GMT

rainning day, warm heart

spring rainning season is coming. a damp, gloomy day. i walked on the way to company in a bad mood. my clothes, my trousers and my shoes all looked like just being dragged from water, actually I was soaked wet.

when i was walking on an overbridge to my company many people brushed me by quickly. a man with a little girl in his arm head-oning and comes. i must looked at him because his umbrella was hardly above his head. he let the umbrella completely cover the little girl in his arm and let himself expose to the rain. moved deeply.

pring rain quickened the earth.

novels

vivie203 — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 19:23:55 GMT

novels

these days i read many novels. everyday after work i just stayed at home and read romantic novels to dispel humdrum. ...........................

today in my birthday in solar calendar....funny, it's also April Fool's Day.....

go abroad

vivie203 — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:19:31 GMT

go abroad

i want to go abroad for further study. who can tell me how i can fulfil it since i am really poor.

last night, when i was on my bed and looked back my life an idea rushed my mind. yeah! why not try to go out to look the other part of the world and to experience a different life. i was so exicited when this idea came out.

then, a problem found lay in my way to abroad. that's how i can fulfil it since i am poor. upset! but the eager to go abroad and watch the world is so intensive i cannot help wanting to fulfil it immediately.

but how how~~~~~~~~~~upset~~~~~~~~~~~

tired these days

vivie203 — Wed, 26 Mar 2008 21:20:08 GMT

tired these days

last night after work, i came home with my colleague also my good friend with an exhausted body and brain. actually, i was very unhappy yeaterday for having no information about the tall guy, really upsetting. with a bad mood, i was just in trance during the whole day at office. my boss came and went in front of me without taking a look at my computer otherwise i guess he would get angry because on the screen of my computer there was only a picture having nothing to do with my current work.

i just walked at the road to the bus stop automatically with a blank mind. what was wrong with me. upset!!!

when i came to home i wnt to bed immediately just like a patient. ohooooooooooooo sleeping is really a good medicine.

my birthday in lunar calendar

vivie203 — Mon, 24 Mar 2008 18:38:04 GMT

my birthday in lunar calendar

today is the birthday both of me and my elder brother Stone. i nearly forgot this before just now i received a beatific message from my brother.

actually, i really hope to receive a beatific message from the tall guy just like former years.

i have heard your beatitude in my deep heart. thanks! today i will really be happy.

losing much in a day

vivie203 — Sun, 23 Mar 2008 19:13:31 GMT

losing much in a day

yesterday, i was told that my house was taken away. tears, tears, only tears left. without argueing for the ownership of the house, i gave it up. at last, i gave up my home. i didn't want to hurt everybody or affect others. just tears with me in the long long night.

i was missing the tall guy these days. when i am sad he is alway smiling in distance maybe in my heart. why didn't u help me to strive for our home??? i feel i am in pieces now.

a true nightmare

vivie203 — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 01:40:37 GMT

a true nightmare

before writing this article i must tell you something about my unlucky experience on posting this "nightmare". since this article is a little bit long so i took some time to write it down here. to my surprise, when i ultimately finished and planned to post it something unexpected happened. Ebaby asked me to relogin, so i just relogined then sadly found my acticle haven't posted and then disappeared.

so reluctantly i rewrite the article again.

last night i had a real nightmare. at the beginning, a girl was struggling in the sea and gonna drown while i was walking along the sea with the tall guy. without consideration, i jumpped into the sea in the hope of saving the girl. but i forgot one fact, that's i don't know how to swim. so as you can guess, it was me who was really strugglling in the sea and lingerring on the edge of death. at this moment, i saw a familar silhouette swimming close to me. yes, that's the tall guy. when he saw my crazy action, immediately he jumpped into the sea following me. ultimately, i didn't know whether he save the girl but what i really know is that he had saved me from death.

afterward, something more strange happened. there were some discarded trained on the bank. we went through a train and washed our hands. suddenly the train changed to a ship with four floors and we were at 4th floor. without noticing this the tall guy jumpped off the ship and then found i couldn't get off the ship. there was one thing shocking. that's the tall guy without any hurt from jumpping down from so high a ship. incredible! then he went to find something that may can help. during this period, a woman with a big smile appeared in the ship and said " your boyfriend really love u deeply". i felt surprised to her present but happy for her words. suddenly behind the woman some aboriginal men and women appeared and what's worse the mentioned women also became an aborigine. they all laughed and this scared me. then i sounded loudly. but a man sealed my mouth with his left hand. the tall guy heard me, but when he was back the train miraculously run away in a high speed. .......

the trained went through the sea and then reached a small island......

a new fish in the virtual sea

vivie203 — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 00:41:34 GMT

a new fish in the virtual sea

just like a drop in the sea, i know who iam and how inappreciable i am, but since i am here i am gonna paddle in this halcyon sea.

i always miss a guy, actually a really tall and strong guy always with mild smile. where are you? yes, i know you are always standing in distance watching me and caring for me. thanks! i will keep our promise of being happy all the time. yes, i will. i smile and laugh wilfully. i enjoy life every day with my whole heart. missing u all the time.

working in a strange city, walking in a crowded street, living in a different style....that's my real life in Guangzhou, the provincial capital of Guangdong.

sometimes i got lost in the city because of its large size. missing my hometown, a small city along the Pacific sea, all the time.

a little garden in my heart

vivie203 — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 00:07:55 GMT

a little garden in my heart

everybody has his/her inner garden, some of which are secret from outside world whereas some are sharable with others. no exception, i have a little little inner garden.

vivie's inner garden by vivie203 | English, baby! Blogs

today u wrote a poem for me

today u wrote a poem for me

tears in eyes, sorrowness in heart

tears in eyes, sorrowness in heart

A visit to Baiyun mountain

A visit to Baiyun mountain

I am eager to visit Italy and the beautiful Sicily

I am eager to visit Italy and the beautiful Sicily

信仰

信仰

过火 张信哲

过火 张信哲

happiness with pain

happiness with pain

Midsummer Night's Dream

Midsummer Night's Dream

decision

decision

a story stolen from a new friend

a story stolen from a new friend

too sad to think

too sad to think

those were the days

those were the days

pls don't give up

pls don't give up

four-leaf clover

four-leaf clover

about holiday

about holiday

rainning day, warm heart

rainning day, warm heart

novels

novels

go abroad

go abroad

tired these days

tired these days

my birthday in lunar calendar

my birthday in lunar calendar

losing much in a day

losing much in a day

a true nightmare

a true nightmare

a new fish in the virtual sea

a new fish in the virtual sea

a little garden in my heart

a little garden in my heart

过火张信哲

过火张信哲