SEVENTH_ELEMENT

                              in god(part one):when i was in third level of my second part of study(it doesnt have any meaning in english but in my country,its called"guidance school"in my country)
there was a dream for us,wich ones were the best in a very good school,to be pass the imam hossein entering exam,and it wasnt easy enough for us to pass it,because there were arrivals from "tohid"
school,they were well-trained and we were not,but yet there were some strange feeling of being passed in this exam,until that time,there werent any religeous family background in our house.if you ask me,i'll answer there was a very
important problem,which was basically,it was reflection,way of reflecting,all can see as far as they noses.until that time,i was very hardworking on learning english language,my mother made me to do it,and now i understand its value,its importance and i appreciate it
but it was making me very tired,i was unable to do anything else,any endevours for reaching my main goal was harder than my power to handle it,so i left the english away,i was well trained in this field,and it wasnt hidden for anyone,so i started getting ready for my exam,
after exam,causing by some strange reasons i was forced to start praying,it was hard and my will was stronger than that,but another problem was being alone,i was alone in that very hard and intolerable situation,but there was something new,so i suffered alone,and i didnt let anyone to call me a loser
think about what i said,i remember some days when i spendt 45 minutes in each of my daily prays(islamic rule),i think you can clearly find out how it was changed,so there should be reason,a effective reason,thank GOD i passed the exam,i entered a new world,where i havent seen it before,some kind of revolution was taking place
so i have to make sure of staying in this school,but i didnt know how i have to do it,after first half-term exams,i saw my report card,i was 78th of all(98 persons),terrible,so i had to find out myself and time was wasting in its fastest speed ,so i started with 6 hours daily  studying ,i had to compensation all the ruined part of my life,alone,
if i say alone,i mean being alone it reflecting,in my opinion,its the most important reason of all,like what is said in holy quran.
.allah be merciful