Jolin Chou

     Till now,I still don't figure out how people change themselves and why when they're going to abroad.My best friend,I thought she was,and now,she totlely became another person that I've never know,she was born in Yichun,and we were classmates when  in Senior school,and she went to Guangzhou at the 2nd grade,then,she refused to tell others that she's born in Yichun,and maybe she's shamed about telling the trueth,she said she's a local of Guangzhou and there's one thing I have to admit that she's really smart,she learned their language before she came there,and she was trying hard to pretented herself as a rich,maybe she wanted more like the Guangzhou people,then she did it,and I was told to tell the lie for her,I don't know why I should do this,but I promise her to.

      Then we're college students,she worked hard for 2 years,change many boyfriends,finally,she hunted one guy who is from UK and he's a presedent of his university,Carrie,the girl I mentioned in my fist dairy,she finally went to UK with his help and had a job there,I was really proud of her because she turned her dream come ture,she went to the city she dreamed about,and we could still keep in touch with MSN,but I was wrong.It seems like she doesn't want to have a  friend like me,no money,no power,and I'm in China,maybe I could pretented as a  Japanese or if I were in UK now,and she would be so happy to have such a friend!

      I cared about her,everytime she's on line I was trying to leave massege,greeting her and asking if I could help,but she always said "I'm busy,I was working"or even doesn't answer me at all,and I know she's really doing her own bussiness,chating with other guys who's American or Italian,she would very like to talk about her life  with them who live in abroad too,but she doesn't like talking to me,because of my poor background,I know that,even she always tell me I'm her best friend but I can feel that she was lieing.So,what can I do?This is a friend could be,I learn a lot from her,so I  stop concerning her,I'm really tired to have such a friend,so,let it be!You live your life and I live mine,nothing will be happened between us,and you're not my friend anymore,and you would never worried about your secret,I can keep it for you,and,don't tell me again that I am always your best friend,coz I'll not from now on ,I can't take it anymore,I want to release myself,I want to take some fresh air and I want to be more better to my other friends,those whom really care about me,and that will never be you!