echan_imoeth

tonight...

i never imagine that i will hear something that made me awake all night long

when all people sleep well, i stood alone in front of the computer

a warm chocolate milk, comfortable blanket, cozy bed, even soft pillow can't make my eyes close!!

those words..

those sentences...

keep repeating over and over again through my ears

i wish i could cry, but my tears already dried

i wish i could smile, but this lips are sealed

how come something that i feel must be banish in a blink of my eyes?

how come my trust can be broken into pieces?

is it true? is it real?

I'm so afraid to know the answer..

i don't have a courage to seek the truth..

i don't have any wise words to start the question..

in silence i can only look at those memories

the day i saw you, the day i met you and the day that all of this begin

at this moment i felt like i lose everything

then i saw my friend stand beside me..

smiled at me and told me, that i can make a good decision

am i really that strong?

i said i wanna cry, i wanna scream as loud as i can..

but my friend said, what is it for? something happened for a reason..

ah...

those words... something happened for a reason

now..

i think God have other plan for me

maybe what i had found it's not the one for me...

i wanna scream at you i said clearly to my friend

with laugh my friend said, until you satisfied the one you talked about wouldn't heard your scream at me

again..

i hate those sentences..

so hard, so far, so unbelievable

how can this night can turn me up side down

just like a boat in the ocean hit by the storm

only can wait until all of this pass

waiting the sentences from my friend, like waiting for the hangman to pull the rope

made all my heart wanna pop up and run

too bad the night getting dark..

the last thing i heard from my friend is

"you are the one that have all the decision, all of them will be your own heart will, choose it wisely"

agghh...

i can't make it!!

i don't have any idea with all of this!!

hold on?! let it go?!

which one?!

like a circle, i can't find any finish line

in deep dark night...

i can only sit still in silence

looking at those fake glaze, wondering when will be the right time to finish it all

getting darker...

and darker...

darker...

now what left,

only the silence in my heart and the whisper of the night wind