Slim~a

Life is strange, actually. it may be not so boring, but i am tired at times. F, he has failed 3 times before. he said, changes are for good, he left never to return. i considered him to be my friend. but he has made everything possible to push me off. i just cant get it, how dare he come back and promise everything will be ok? and how can i take him back? i have lost him many time before, i cant see any point in trying one more time. i am done with it. i want to move forward.and he discourages me from that. he is constantly pointing it out, i am the one to blame, to feel guilty. he reveals all my shortcomings. and who said they are really shortcomings? he said. he might think that the greatest sc of mine is me actually. you know, it`s like he that really person who pushes all my buttons, pisses me off on a regular basis and makes me face my shit (c)