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Today i just  find there is a totally gap between my mates.I say something just kidding while she took serious and explain what i might mistook.The samething happened just a few days ago.At that time,i think no matter  for ununderstanging.Today i feel tired.You know you just want  a joke while others take it serious you need to explain your joke with 5 mins till my joke came out. And then no pleasure of the joking.I think it embrassed me.

Perhaps we are all on the right track, but our tracks hard to join.You  konw it's lonely, you will even want to say nothing after it happened for just I fear it happen again and just now i was gona kidding again and i now gave it up.We just lack something i have had with my middle school mate.When i gona say something she would say out all we just took the same pace.Like our Chinese saying "our heart beat at the same pace".It's tough with no one around you know your thoughts.I'm comlicated on one side i want others konw what ithinking i do care,on the other hand if someone not important for me or not close so much in feelings i would let it go. i just keep my mind along with no explaination.Sometime i think my mind to others aren't important so there is no needs to exchange our idea what makes me more lonely like things in my mind hiding well.