Story Of Cuxt

its Sooo Long i didn't write my blogs...

my english is still very2 poor..

well this is a story about me a few months ago until now...

i met her in may from one of my social netwoks site...  then we chat.. we started to know each other... she is from the same city in my high school (different school) she is one of my former classmate's friend...

then we started to love each other...

 in 2nd june when she come to my city.. i asked her... do you want to be my GF?
she answered yes...

then we started our relationship...
i went to her city, hang out together for 3 days.. we met almost once a month...

but it doesn't as easy as i thought...

in the 2nd month of our relationship she started to change...
she never seems to care about me...i often asked her... but she said nothin changed...

then just when my feelings gone... she changed back... she called at midnight she said she missed me... the for one week she become so lovely... she cared... 

but... just one week... one week...

she changed again..  this time i asked her again.. i asked her: what i've done that makes u changed? 

she said: you've done nothing... but i can't stand a long distance relationship like this... so sorry... its better we end our relationship... but we stay as a friends...

i asked her to think about her decision for so many time... and her answer are always the same...

 my heart breaks... i still loved her... but its already ended...

so i decided to stay strong... maybe this is the best way for both of us...

hope she find someone better than me... and i find someone better than her....

hoaammm... its 20:46 in indo...

this few days i feel so happy... ha6... dunno why.... and i even didn't feel nervous at all even tomorrow i'll face the competition... and i already feel okay... even she's already dumped me... huh life is cruel.. i loved her so much.. but she didn't even look at me.. T_T.. well anything happens life goes on... >.<

ganbate cuxxie... ciayo.. acha2 fighting... ha6 

well... I Hoped that one day you'll read this...

 Maybe u've already know this...
or maybe u never know...

I Loved U... so much...

but i never know did u feel the same?

I'm tired already rhie...
I'm tired  Lovin U..
sometimes U Could Be So Nice... So Caring..
but sometimes U didn't even care.. U didn't receive my call 4 a week.. U didn't reply my message 4 a few days.. Sometimes U Seems like already closed the doors... sometimes u seems like hated me... makin me feel like a stupid man...

Maybe Its True U Closed The Doors.. Didn't want to let me in..

Thats why... I'm Givin Up... I'm Tired Already....

goodbye my love....  thx anyway for being part of my love story..