hi

 when something goes wrong i always think positive. if i can find any little bit i can be responsible for. it automatically find it around.huh..dont know what the best word i should use to. something bad happen to me and i go for it. i can fix it hope it will not happen again. people always appreciate things when they lost it march 1st..

lini, hope u can be there for me to find out what i;m not telling u in private massage.

for those customer  which are still waiting be patient.the right always on the top.i'm still hovering and if he is flake out, i'm not waiting anymore.

 21 march 2007

hurm......anyway i would like to share about my self last night. my university  organized convocation feasts. so i'm just hang out with my asfa she was my close friend to convo feast. lots of stall and people around and there was a small concert and celebrity there. after i finished to watch there keep going walked. i sent a massage to my new gorgeous friend. when talked with him

last night-22 march 2007

i give him a called around 12 and half. after i talked with him i cant doing nothing. i'm just sitting at my bed and start thinking about what i had done along this week.its so ridiculous to thing about it.. my sasuke only in memory now.and that memory will old and change by time went by.

23 march 2007  people are nti like intimate things. people change all the time. sometimes they are happier than the day before, or more sadder, or more troubled or more passionate or cooler. everyone get the picture. circumstances affect how we feel can impact how we respond. different people deal with different circumstances in different ways. i have managed to pick myself up even though i was very reluctant to be like that. i have moved on and he was too. perhaps now that i aware he was not my sasuke anymore. I'll find the motivation to meet with others..

my smiling friend along the dark and forgone road, when day light has faded the night are cold, when tears are sled and trouble never cease to end i find the smiling friend her face..when i go downhill and feel depressed, tried of living will all strain and stress tired of living in error of sin, i reach out my hand to my smiling friend. i thank god for the beauty nature have given the golden sun and deep blue seas, i thank God for living  and for good health for poetry a little things i thank God 4 people who care for me so much, and before my prayer at night can be end i thank God for my smiling friend..ucachi thanks for massaging me for a fews last night.

freaky sorry for disturbing u..i now u r in the midst sitting for your repeat paper. hope u can perform well more than last sem.

339pm monday 26th march 2007

dear  someone have trooper....please let me know what happened. i couldnt bear it if you thought badly of me. i know that u cant possibbly forgive or condone what i've done...what i'm doing, but  i know that you'll understand. i've always thought that if i had the chance to explain myself to u, confide in you that you would be the one person would surely understand. you always saw me for what i was. you always knew what i thought about you. i could see it in that shy smile..

you knew that you had power over me, didn't you but i was never angry with you because of it. part of me me enjoyed the teasing i wanted to be the one u teased. it feel like i was needed anyway. it just made you more attarctive to me trooper..

he was alone and frightened of nothing. i could tell by myself way he was walking when i followed his out of the that place. not everyone i could tell that. it was too dark and he couldnt see how weak and vile i was. there was no fear in his eyes when i spoke he knew though, what was going to happen, when he saw the fear in mine.

as soon as he knew, he sturggled but he wasn't strong  enough. he was less than half my size..trooper.and i just had to wait for his to fade a little. he ws straching and spitting and i couldn't looked at him. and when it was over i couldn't bear it that his face which had been so open and warm like yours now looked like something behind glass or frozen for a long time inside a bolck of ie..and i i was the one who had made it like that..

and i was hard trooper..down there..whle i was doing it and again after wards, while was hiding him. i stayed exited until the hissing in my head began to die down and the scratches on my hands started to hurt.

i was hard like i never am, even when i'm thingking aout the past. i dont want to embarrass you by talking like this but if i cant be honest with yyou about these things ten there's no point anything.i never really told you what i ws thinking when i had a chance, i'm not going to hide things now. and i will never lie to you trooper i promise u that. of course youre not the only one who knows what i really am but youre the only one who can see what's inside.i'm not making excuses, i know that i deserved nothing, but at the very least i'm being open about eveything. open and honest.he was nothing to me.the dude form that place. he was nothin tto me and i squeezed the life out of him. i'm so very sorry and i deserve what is surely coming. i hate to sk a favour, trooper, but if u see him, the guy i imagine to slap or kill will u tell him that for me?

huhuh..actually its was over in a matter o second when i wake up that morning..i just dream i can kill him instead i can forget him..for trooper i can say yes for you invitation and i'm not going to say what really emerge in your mind now..

26.3.2007 2-4am..in the morning..

upset as they forced me to say that..just take it as a challanges. Ya Allah,  i your sort of weak vicegerent.

its like a little crazy..its not going as my planing at first..yah, mah and the rest my reka bentuk industri project waiting for me tonite. i'll finish that website and thatpresentation

congratulation to my dear cousin in uitm shah alam coz got a new niece which born 2 last days..hope u can be a great makngah