what's going on with me

  sometimes i was very confused about myself. i really want to improve my english , so i made plans to try to achieve my goals, but every method i take seems in vain. i can't find a better way to help me stick to the end. 

 i have difficuty in feeling further improvement of my english. how can i get over this obstacle. en... i lost my way , i think. i'd better calm dowm first and have a good rest . sth must be allowed to put down for later consideration. now go to bed...