Cross my mind

Finally done with all the shity assignments and i have got more time to focus on final, cross my fingers and pray hard* Yesterday was a birthday surprise party for mum; undoubtly,it turned out great although it wasn't a big crowd but with the closet peoples.

Something held me back and made me so wishy-washy. I know am should be more approachable to accost to you but it was real hard after knowing the fact that maybe there were some differences btw us; or, i am just being sensitive perhaps? i have never liked to be franked when came to this kind of matter but it was irritating me. I am hoping that am able to figure out the solution thus everything will has a conclusion. I tried not to repeat the same mistakes that i had made from the past because what's the point of repeating it when i know it's going to hurt me again. I am daunting myself when come to this kind of circumstance because i just don't have the courage. Maybe this time is going to be different* i tried not to letting myself to involve in this kind of consequences again and i want to stay away from it utterly and jiffy. i knew right off the bat, i still can't get what i want. I should be optimistic and carry the hope that maybe things can be worked out that we don't even take note of it.

well, is going to be better in time and all i need are spaces. Give me sometimes maybe things change*

i am wanting more, but i can solely get half of it or maybe not at all*

Distraction, sometimes i wish that i could have no smiling, no greeting, no meeting anyone, but just being alone and wondering. When you get to meet so many people and attend so many events or any occasions, working so hard, studying so hard and list go on.Is sort of annoying and how you wish you can have your own sweet time. I know is impossible but sometimes i was so lazy to bother anything that happened around me or pretended like i am someone who please others when i am not in the mood. =.=

You see, everyday, each and all of us are meeting people and is hard to escape the fact that no matter what you do, needless to say, you have to deal with people. So is hard to have the balance in this complicated society.Anyhow, you still need to deal with people; but when conflicts, rumors, bad rap, discrimination and so forth have happened, were daunting and making us feel like escaping all these matters jiffy.

If everything is the fact, that's no way for us to elusive it but confront it, thats how i learnt from the previous mistakes that i had made. Why can't us just surrounded by people that we love, for instance, family and friends? on the contrary, we can shrug off the unnecessary people and things, but how many of us can really do it? well, i am questioning again, as if i am able to find the answer. i hate bitching, but when you are someone better than them, jealousy occur and thus follow by the rumors and gossips. Sadly, you don't know either of it, in fact you have done nothing against them but those random folks thought that you are their biggest competitor. Ridiculously, all you can do is to either be franked and confronted to that person or just keep your mouth shut. In my point of view, is depends the circumstance, but more or less i will just confronted to that person who bitch about me.

well, i had this kind of experience and found it so annoying moreover i found out that was actually a guy bitch about me. i was surprised because how on earth guy can be so busybody. If you tell me that is a girl who bitching me, i wouldn't be that shocked because girls' sensitivity is predictable. The solution that i chose was ignorance; ignorance is the way of life and make your life so much easier. Till now, i don't accept his apologize even though he felt apologetic because something just can't be forget when he played it fool and never stand on people' side to consider.

so here i am blogging down all these matters which bothering me lately. on the bright side, previous days,i finally get the time to catch up with my best friends and was so happy to see all of them. Winks**

Finally planned myself a vacation, and parents agreed to let me travel alone, Of course, will meet up friends there. I can't wait for it and now i have no choice but to cancel others vacation plans which i have planned around march to may. Anyway, i am looking forward to this trip simply because this is my second time travel to there and i gonna meet up my peeps there and have a blast there!Dream comes true...hahaha....

have a great day people!!!xoxo...