I don't know

I don't know what I should do at this moment,a quite important time.

I'm always thinking about myself ,about my computer study,my eating,my feelings ,my dreams,etc.Once one of my classmates doubted that how I was thinking all the time,without having a break.In her mind ,I am a strange person ,who is quite different from other girls----maybe ,I say maybe,I just want to become a boy,not a girl.My characteristics are a lot like a boy,in my opinion.I don't like many things while other girls like.I would like try my best to be an independent person, even though I still need your help on some extents.During my junior middle school course,I was appointed as the class master ,but the students,who were bad at their marks,thought of me as a scary person.They usually talked about that I had speak ill of one of them before our teachers,but I hadn't.As a different student,I should learn to suffer from each thing .So from then on,I took it as a habit that I paid no attention to the words.I don't care much what others say about me.

And now,I am a common college student,without any special task.I had remembered myself of being kind to everyone around me.In my dormitory,I am the second younger girl.I love to make friends with varies people,on the internet,in our compus,by mobilephone and QQ or e-mails. And I have fell in love with one boy,who is long-distanced from my college.Once I loved him very much just because of his words,his beautiful written articles,my favourite.But now,there exist problems  between us.I will be  tired out if we continue this love I think.I don't know what I should do .Maybe breaking up is a good choice for both of us,maybe it is good... ...But my heart will go on what?Study?Yeah,here it is of great importance for me.That ought to be my favourite.Then I will protect myself away from  harms and boring things.Do I make the right decision?