My Cabin

Finally the rain stopped. What a sunny day!  My mood is easily affected by weather, so now I feel everything around me is sooo beautiful…the sun shines, birds sing, tree leaves glow…except for my English poems--- the poems I wrote several years ago as assignment for my writing class. Just now when tidying my room I found them, my poor products that were once my pride but for years have been completely forgotten and deserted. Now as I reread them, I laughed and realized how childish I was then to just follow the form but ignore the meaning. Look at what I’ve written---

The Best Day

The very day when I was born was such

A day that my parents long for so much

For the first time of my life did I see

So many beautiful things around me

Bestowed by God a hopefully new start

I felt excitement and hope in my heart

So there is hardly any day on earth

That is more meaningful than a child's birth

Did God really bestow me something since I'm not a christian? How could I have such rich emotions on the first day of my life? And obviously there are more events much more important than children's birth, hehe. But I'm happy that my perceptive ability develops, and that the poems brought me joy together with the sunshine. if we see things from a positive perspctive, everything is meaningful and pleasurable, isn't it?

I NEVER WANT TO GO ON A BLIND DATE AGAIN!!!

It feels so strange to date a man who you've never seen before, especially with the guy that is not your type. I passed every minute like a century today. we ate in the eyebrow lake caffee and then walked along the campus for nearly two hours.He was talkative, I just listened passively and didn't feel like to propose a topic or even utter a word. I knew well that I should show respect to him, i did try but i felt so compulsive and unnatural. coming from two completeley different worlds, why must we go together? if love is gained at the cost of joy and freedom, i'd rather stay alone. so I'd better quit as soon as possible, for the sake of us both. Be brave and strong Kay, one day you will find your happiness, the happiness that truly belongs to you.

Now it's snowing outside, a little weird coz it's already spring and it didn't snow once during the last winter. nevertheless, i love snow, as much as i love rain, i love them even more than sunny day. i can't explain why, i just enjoying immersing myself in this kind of weather, looking through the window, listening to the rhythem of nature and indulging myself in crazy thoughts.

this sunday i'm going on a blind date with someone i've never seen before. i don't know what the result will be, i confess i'm nervous and hesitating. though i was in such a great need to find a boyfriend by my side, now that the chance falls, how come i become so afraid of taking the step? i keep telling myself what's gonna happen will happen naturally, don't worry too much. as for the result, on verra.

and D, I miss you. haven't heard from you for a long time, i'm really worried about you. hope you are well.

also, wish my friends and myself all the best.