My MESSY Blog
Turkey
September 23, 2012
Do you ever feel useless, a little bit bereft of self-confidence and proper goal?
I have been feeling that way for the past few weeks. I have been ruminating deeply again and again about what line of job I should be leading and what will possibly make me most satisfied and content.
Sometimes thinking deeply makes me discouraged, even though my self-confidence is often at quite a high level. When you rack your brains on something too much, your brain tends to think very broadly and some baseless and disheartening ideas just pop up. "Oh, hey, what if I cannot succeed in the end?" "Yeah, possibly, you will fail." "God, what happens if I fail? Hell, no, I have to accomplish my goals." "Give up, your rivals are too strong." This last sentece put me on fire. It was like I had a nice slap on my face which jolted me out this big twilight zone.
Besides, people keep telling me, "So when are you starting to work?" Being exposed to the very same question for a few months after graduation, I feel truly geared up to set my mind on a definite goal and go for it. I feel pretty self-assertive again and keep aiming for higher. Maybe it is not going to be an easy ride, but as far as I know the destination, I will keep going.
MESS *-*
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Moriza
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July 18, 2012
Unquestionably, it is nice to hold people dear to your heart and value their friendship, because it shows you are caring, warm-hearted and respectful, and being respectful is what we were taught by our parents.
But what about putting people on a pedestal and not receiving as much value as you give to them? That really hurts.
To me, calling a friend to have a quick talk, writing a brief e-mail, inviting friends to a coffee shop or cafe (for half an hour or so), or texting them show you care and value their friendship. These are very small things which take only a few minutes with no physical effort and exhaustion. However, doing all this "right on time" with no delay (if not because of very imporant reasons) requires a subtle wit, which I appreciate extremely a lot. If things are not done right on time, and if words are broken, and if I feel I am being undervalued, I change my route to another destination but this time behaving more sensibly. I am at peace with myself, my rules and my characteristic features. I carry out my responsibilities for people very carefully because it is so easy to worry people, but not honorable! I also know that life is all about giving and taking. You take as much as you give. However, the funny thing is although I am aware of all this (that sometimes I do not get what I give), I still set people on a pedestal more than they deserve. This is a part of my caring side, even if it ends up being disappointed eventually. I place value on people because each person is a wonderful creation of GOD. It is hard to admit it but experiencing this many times before, I am avoiding close relationships with people any more to get less hurt. But now mattter how hard you try to avoid something out of your way, it keeps coming your way.
MESS
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Agnolia
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July 5, 2012
If they asked me this question a month ago, I would say, “It is very boring and I am not cut for that job, so it does not appeal to me.”
I made a U-turn, though and my ideas have changed quite a lot.
I had never imagined teaching could be fun. When I was first offered this job (it is a temporary job, because I have other loafty career plans) two weeks ago after graduation, I had some hesitations because teaching children made me scared. "Oh, children? How will I manage it?" It has been a week since I started and I have realized I was being biased. Children are not as naughty as they are considered to be. If they love you, they do whatever you tell them to do. My students, aged 12-14 are great and incredibly smart. They do not make me repeat things more than once. Sometimes I am truly amazed that they catch everything very quickly. In addition to their smartness, their behaviors fill my heart with joy. They welcome me outside of the classroom. Some of them are even competing to hold my books. The girls are scrutinizing me from top to toe every time. When I wear a necklace or a watch, they are staring at me very admiringly. That’s why I am trying to wear simple jewellery which might not catch their attention more than me. When I use a new word or sentence structure in my mother tongue, I hear them using it in their conversations when they are playing. As soon as I finish writing on the board, they are competing to clean the board. "Please, can I clean the board?" Once one of my students got offended when I did not let her clean the board. Next time I let her do that and I could see the happiness on her face. Now I let those who are willing to clean the board do it in turns. None of them gets resentful any more. Just two days ago, the mother of my favorite student came to see me. I was quite surprised when her mother told me that she (my student) was talking about me at home so much that she could not help wondering who I was and how I looked, so she made it to my class after the lesson. Her mother says, "Every word she speaks is about you. I am wondering how you can make yourself be loved so strongly by these students." It is the trick of the trade! :)
All in all, it is just a great feeling to be surrounded with very clever students who look at you admiringly and learn from you a lot, not only English but also good manners which will be enlightening their way throughout their lifetime.
MESS ツ
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