totally new....

   i don`t know this is right or wrong..........

i began my new year life in this way.......i am not sure about what kind of feeling this is......is this love or just short time perioud crush......

anyway i know i don`t have fell guilty about this......i am happy ,and i made my life more perfect....this is it...........i am eager to get more but i still have to satisfy with life......

   he is the little kid who is just being around me and try to be good

it seems we love each other in the same standered .  so there is no such a thing called being cheated.....................

 what i have to do is make sure everything gonna be in a right way.........no huring and no being hurt!

i would like to have a beautiful memory in my last year in this  place.......amazing anough to memorize after 20,30years........

from another aspect ,i love myself only .....in this long life journy ,i really need a company......and from someaspects he is the perfect one.good looking, kind hearted,and think like a child sometimes ...very cute!so i don`t mind if i belong to him forever........but it seems it is impossible...i am leaving next year but he still have to stay here for at least 3years......both of us can`t garantee we r not going to cross the line

loneliness is a very hard thing to suffer.....so this is it.......i am very honest....am i?///