I'm getting old!

"I pack my case, I check my face
I look a little bit older
I look a little bit colder
With one deep breath, and one big step
I move a little bit closer, I move a little bit closer
For reasons unknown..."

(For Reasons Unknown - the Killers)

  Wow, I can't believe it. Today it's my 19th B-day.

I guess when people say that time flies in the blink of an eye, they really mean it!

I used to deslike my birthdays. No one likes growing old, but I don't think this was normal in my case, I mean... I was too young to hate birthdays and stuff like that. But, today it's different. 

First of all: It's not raining today! Everybody used to mock me because it always rains on my birthday. But, different from other years, today the sun was beating down! It was a bright sunny day! Ok, now it's kinda cloudy, but at least it's not raining...! (not yet!)

I don't know why but today I've got this feeling, you know... I wanna do everything I've never done before! I wanna try something new, I wanna find myself! I'm searching for changes. I've been planning on doing a lot of things like starting new projects and finishing old ones.

Today I don't care about birthday presents or cakes. I just want to keep this feeling alive. I just wanna fight for my own happiness and feel that I can win. Well, maybe I'm finally starting to mature. It's a good thing, right? 

So, that's all for today. I'm gonna kick back, maybe read something or take a nap. I have classes later, so I won't throw a party. haha

Well, till the next post, then!