i'm in love again....

It’s obvious to me that hubby gave me more attentions and affections lately…by stroking my hair, my cheeks, light kisses and mumbling something sweets in my ear….it’s raised suspicious….actually he often do that but not this often…..hell what did I do to him…what have gotten him…? 

One quiet evening we chatted side by side in the living room….suddenly he begged me not to get mad on him….(tha..da…is my suspicious going to be proved..?).hm..deal..i promised not to….whatever he’s gonna to say….finally he said ” I’m  in love with another girl”. I didn’t show shocked reaction or something as I knew how I’m going to handle., it would be gentle and don’t be hard to him, instead I said…”what are you going to do then..?”

Why I could act so calm and  pretend like it’s not a big deal..? it might because I got the same experience a year back…in love with another man from where I had been worked… wait….don’t get me wrong...i didn’t do anything stupid like… sneaking out, making out, no chemical romance.. no affair ..i even didn’t show what I had felt to him….

I rather to hurt my self than to hurt somebody else ..in this case..my hubby…

Hell ..it was sooo hurt….his face always popped up wherever and whenever I was awake…getting harder when the night fall ..I cried out his name in the middle of the night……man….it’s killing me…. Only I didn’t bring this on the table to share with my hubby like the way he did….though it would be a risky move to admit being in love with another man while we’re married…how if he can’t accept it ..it would be a catastrophe ..?

Hubby said : Nothing going to happen…I wouldn’t  leave you because of her…trust me I didn’t do anything stupid with her….and I’ll be healed as the time goes by……

I said “ I know..” then I told him what had hit me a year earlier…..

Hubby said : do you want me to tell you if the same thing hit me again…..

Me : if you don’t mind to..

Hmm  LIFE IS SO BEAUTIFUL……after all……

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